A waiting sort of day …

Race 10 is finished no Yellow Brick to view as a distraction first thing on waking up … That means one thing – next time I will be part of the YB story not watching from the sidelines. Heart rate all fluttery.

This morning I handed my passport in so that makes me – on paper at least – part of Jamaica’s crew.

On the way to the boat ran into Nell, Andy, Heggie + Chris Viz from Jamaica. Only Nell was chipper, the chaps still decidedly weary from the sailing. We talked about this + that, about the lack of the much longed for rolling seas of the Pacific, about being in the wrong place at the wrong time + Adam being washed man overboard by a wave + being battered + bruised but not thankfully lost in the sea. It is surprising how matter-of-fact such drama seems to the participants when they have lived the story – not even headline news, just one of a number of asides. Surviving, it seems, in the end comes down to commonsense – and not being in the wrong place at the wrong time (nobody said that last bit, but I thought it).

In fact low keyness is a trait displayed by all of those I have met who have previously raced. Drama? We smile knowingly in the face of drama.

Understated cool or no – getting to this point seems to have taken an eternity and right now I just want to get started.

By the end I want to feel I have done my bit + been a successful crew member.

It was one of the many criticisms leveled at me that I did things for people and not with people. That hurt so much, wanting to be on the inside but decidedly feeling otherwise.

I want to prove to myself that I can do this + maybe I am good enough …

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One thought on “A waiting sort of day …

  1. Following your progress with great interest, how exciting for you and emotional also!
    Good luck and take care.

    Chris Parrett

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